Times Like This

My Best

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 11:46:45 PDT

I wish to spend every waking moment with you
I wish to be with you always and forever
To wipe every tear from your eye
Whether it be from happiness
Or sadness
Or even frustration
I just want to be the one
You will always turn to
When you need a shoulder to cry on
An ear to listen
A person to love you
I may not be the best
But I will try my best to make you happy
To show exactly how much I love you
To be there to help you
When you just feel like escaping
Escaping from the real world
I would try my best
To create a world you could escape into
A world inside my heart
It could hold all of your secrets
I would try my best to make you feel special
Make you feel beautiful
Make you feel loved
If was ever to not try my best
It would be due to death
Because you only deserve my best
My undying love
And affection
Until the day I die.

�Angel Monk
April 15, 2004

My Mind, My Heart

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 11:53:14 PST

My knees start to shake
When you're in sight
My mind is filled with wonder
And my heart filled with fright
I am so confused
I don't know what to do
I can't think of anything
All except for you
Will this feeling stop
When did it start
I am afraid to listen to my mind
Afraid I'll break my heart
But I can't stop thinking about you
Each and every waking hour
I see you when I close my eyes
I wish that time was ours
So should I ignore this feeling
Or just give it time
I can't think straight anymore
My heart controls my mind...

�Angel Monk
March 22, 2004

Is It?

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 06:47:31 PST

That feeling?
THIS feeling?
It's back again
For one year it has been gone
Not since then
Have I felt it for anyone
These butterflies...
THIS feeling in my stomach
I know what it meant last time
Do I feel that way again?
Just simply thinking about you
Makes the butterflies start to flutter
Your touch can make my knees go weak
I could just stare at you for hours
And not get bored once
I don't know if this means what I think
It could mean that I am falling hard for you
Falling really hard
Falling like I have only fallen once before
But this time it seems so much deeper
I am so confused
I never thought I would feel this again
These butterflies...
I would drop anything I am doing
Just to spend time with you
Truly I would
I wish that now I could just understand
This feeling..
These butterflies...
Is it love?

�Angel Monk
March 21, 2004

My Own Dictator

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 11:19:38 PST

The voices say I should leave you
They say that you're wrong for me
The voices say that I deserve better
But with them I disagree
They say that our love is wrong
They all believe it's a sin
But I can't deny this undying love
That I keep held within
The voices are from society
With their homophobic frowns
The voices try to control me
And now my head starts to pound
The voices start to get to me
They're slowly driving me insane
But then when I am with you
Again, my sanity I regain
But I don't know if I should listen
To these voices that stay in my head
They will not leave me alone
Until I have done what they have said
But I choose to ignore these voices
Because My undying love is greater
They shall not control me
For I am my own dictator

�Angel Monk
December 23, 2003

Transparent

Sun, 07 Mar 2004 11:12:03 PST

You know me so well
It scares me sometimes
Like I'm transparent
You see through me
See how I am truly feeling
See what I really want to say
When you look into my eyes
I know you see inside of me
So I turn my head
In hopes to hide
I don't like how you understand me
I want to go back to the days
The days where I was the mysterious one
I was not an open book
This makes me feel vulnerable
But then, I look into your eyes
See through you
See your feeling
Your words
Your thoughts
And I realize
That this is what our love has brought
We are closer than before
But still we both wish for the hint of mystery
And sometimes we get what we wish for
Overall, however
We are just happy to be with each
Knowing that we are only transparent to each other
And not to anyone else.

�Angel Monk
March 6, 2004

I Guess It's Too Late

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 10:03:05 PST

I'm lost without you
So lonely in this world
This world of people
Who take love for granted
Can't see it until it's gone
Can't see what is there in front of them
Losing one thing that would truly make them happy
Make them enjoy their life If only for once
If they..
If I...
If I could have only saw it while I still had a chance
While I still had a chance to say I Love you too
If only, I had felt it and said it then
I wouldn't be lost without you
I wouldn't be so lonely now
I wouldn't be writing this poem
Baby I love you
I'm sorry I didn't say it sooner
I'm sorry I left you hanging
I'm sorry you didn't know it
And now...
I Guess it's too late.

�Angel Monk
March 5, 2004

You Aren't As Great

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 10:01:16 PST

You're not who I thought you were
Mouthing off about things that don't involve you
Saying things to others but not coming to me
Scared?
Hate me?
Don't bring her into it
You don�t know her so you have no right
You�re just jealous
I said I couldn't do it, get over it.
I stopped dating you, GET OVER IT.
You seem to be screwed in life anyways
So why should I waste my time?
Waste my time on the likes of you?
That time could be spent else where
Friends are leaving you
And you're dropping true friends like bad habits
Friends of 4 years
YOUR loss
The guy doesn't want to take you to the prom
Can�t you see that?
You're screwed
You act all bad ass
But really, you aren't as big as you think
People aren't as scared of you as you think
You aren't as intimidating AS YOU THINK
So honestly, I have a few last words to you
A few last words
Because I don't hang around people like you
I don't try and be friends with people like you
Those who talk behind people's backs
So my few last words to you are:
Get over yourself
Because you aren't as 'great' as you think you are.

�Angel Monk
March 2, 2004

Hello

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 10:00:09 PST

I have created this blog so that I would have a place to post my poems other than at AllPoetry.com Not that All Poetry is lame now but I just felt like having another place to post them.